connect with Brianna
Growing up, I viewed Christianity as a path to become a better person: good people prayed, good people were baptized, good people followed the rules. I wanted to be good, so I called myself a Christian. By the time I reached high school, I had worked hard to construct a life that would give me approval from others. I had high grades, nice friends, and a “good girl reputation.”
When I was 17, instead of giving me the fulfillment I hoped for, my constant striving left me feeling empty and numb. I desired to have purpose in my life, but all the places I sought purpose embedded me deeper into a hole of my own discontentment. I connect with David when he says “[God] pulled me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure” (Psalm 40:2). God used this season to show me that everything I was running to for fulfillment was weak and unsatisfying. He lead me to surrender my heart, my desires, my future, and my purpose to His will. As I have grown in love for the Lord, I have experienced him as my solid rock-- never changing and never leaving me empty. The Gospel has shown me that my approval does not rest on my own shoulders. I am accepted by God because of Jesus’ loving sacrifice, and my validation comes from Him alone. The Lord continues to fill my heart with a passion for His gospel because of the joy He has given me through knowing Him.